The Discordant Mind of Reverend Fox

Oi, this is gonna be a long read. It's been brought to my attention that I've not been the nicest person to be around lately... [sidenote -- of course I'd get one sentence into this entry and end up with that little voice in the back of my mind that calls me a narcissist for continuing to write about myself.] Yes, I've been an ass to many people lately, and I've only recently discovered some of the reasons this has been happening. Believe it or not, this recent epiphany was brought about by  the pain I've been in since the fractured molar! Yes, I've lashed out because  of the intense pain, but the issue sits much deeper than that. I guess pain helps me think more clearly. As a friend of mine recently stated: "Your pain being constant is something that you're gonna live with for a while, but the sudden spikes of pain that happen when your jaw clenches causes a fight-or-flight response. The problem  with that is... well, in a normal fight-or-flight sc...

Fair warning, I still hate writing about my authentic self, especially in a positive light. None of this is outright meant to be narcissistic, but I also have to realize that my goal of self-actualization won't happen unless I actually  tackle things what accurately represent me instead of presenting myself as some hyperbolic, overly-emotional douchewaffle.

Maybe because it's Xmas. Maybe because I'm in an immense amount of pain. Maybe because I'm actively tying to write something before I start hallucinating from the immense amount of pain. Either way, it's clear to me that I am experiencing a small writer's block. Don't get me wrong, though. I could whip up a few paragraphs about Tarl Frenrir's adventures through the world of Exil and spin a tale about how he allied himself with one of the three Guardians of Death's Gate in order to defeat an ancient Lich and save the world from vast hordes of undead spewing up from the seas. I could whip up half-a-dozen lines about how the realm in my campaign, Elevation of Kings, defied physics in a way that made absolute sense. I could even write a small missive about how pissed off I was that new Star Wars has completely erased Kyle Katarn, one of the most important characters to the orginal Star Wars canon. Instead, I'm still trying to focus my blogging inward and...

Okay, so it's pretty well-known that I'm a workaholic. I don't like taking days off, and on days where I'm too sick to occupy my desk in the office, I'm at home... working. Yes, I'm one of those few who actually enjoys working and can work efficiently from home. Hells, even on weekends , I'm usually checking my work e-mails, taking calls from clients, and generally doing  work-related stuff. Even when I was on vacation  in Colorado to attend the wedding of my wife's niece, I was connected to work. To be completely honest, it's pretty fucking exhausting. So, when it was recommended that I take a personal day, I was confused! Of course, this personal day couldn't happen on any day that would require me to be in the office, so days where we process payroll, do presentations for clients or Corp, or have to do in-house interviews were right out. That means I can technically  only take Wednesdays off. The problem there, however, is the fact that Wednes...

I wanted to re-post a Holiday Season entry from my former blog that kinda defines this Holiday Season as well. OP Date: 12/16/21 So, as many of you are aware, I generally despise the Holiday Season. It's not because of the friends and family, feasts, gift-giving, and other festivities, though. No, my disdain is based on three factors: Consumerism Religious Theft Forced False-Nature Consumerism Now, the first one is quite easy to explain; we've allowed ourselves to become slaves to the dollar, and the corporations have used that voluntary slavery to make the traditional Holiday festivities revolve around shopping at your local WallMarket, getting the foodstuffs at your local Smurf's or Relay's, and decorating your tree with baubles from Starschmuck's or Dippin' Dingleberries. I prefer to make gifts, honestly, but people don't seem to appreciate that traditional aspect of the Holidays anymore. Religious Theft We all know that the H...

An Update - 2023 A lot has gone on since my last post to YouTube or significant blog update. Much of it comes down to self-realization and personal growth, and I’ve not yet really processed it out loud so… unfortunately, yes… this entry is about me. I’m sorry if some of you will find this to be ‘pretentious’ or ‘narcissistic’. Sometimes, you just have to be open and talk about yourself. It’s not something I do a lot, and I really don’t enjoy doing it. However, this is part of the whole experiment of breaking free of my old self. Workaholism. Firstly, my work has become all-consuming since becoming a branch manager because I’m not only responsible for my own office, but I also assist our Corporate Team by helping other offices all over the nation. I constantly joke about being “never not on the clock”. Maybe I’ve become a workaholic. Maybe I’m not satisfied with how much work I am able to do during office hours. Maybe I’m just bored. I dunno! Now, this isn’t inherently a negative thin...